So, after I got myself together, did some thinking to get my life together, I went to practice (After not being able to show up for practically the whole summer).
Good news here, it didn't kill me. (Thank GOD) Buuuut, the guys pretty much did beat me up at practice, I felt slower than usual, but thanks to my guys I was to keep going.
So, after practice, they had got us some speakers to talk to the team.
And it gave me much motivation to keep pressure on all my situations, and stay on top.
I honestly felt like I would not make it through, and I felt that things would not go well this school year, and with all that thinking and talking, I can feel myself coming back to my usual self. I have many people to thank who all gave me things to think about, and helped me get my spirit back up. Mostly I have to thank Joey (My bf) who stuck with me through such a horrible time so far in my life.
I thank you guys for being tolerant of my absence and inactivity, the guys on my team and coach, the speakers, and my grandmother who I was able to talk to before I came home.
Now I feel I may be able to give you 110% if not 120%.
It's been a good 4 years in this guild, meant some really nice people (Who even tolerated my lewdness) great folks you are, and I hope the guild will continue to turn friends into family.
Thank you for spending your time to read this.
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got to fix that also glad to hear that jashiin